The Early Days…

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In the beginning...

One of my very early memories concerns having to visit the doctor because I had put little pebbles in my ear. The doctor sucked them out with a vacuum device. There was no impact on my hearing. I don’t remember the year in which that occurred, but it was probably before I entered nursery school or kindergarten.

Otherwise, I never had any difficulties with hearing before I entered university. My level of hearing was always good enough that it was never in question through university, too.

That being said, I recall two occasions where one of my ears was blocked with wax. A visit to the doctor resolved that issue. I remember the drops that supposedly dissolved the wax and the device that sprayed warm water into my ear to clear out the dissolved wax.

My early years at graduate school, too, were not marked by any hearing difficulties. In fact, from about 3rd grade until my first year at graduate school I was an active musician.

No, I was not a rock musician playing at 90 decibels or more. I was mostly playing classical music—playing the clarinet for the first three years and then switching to the oboe and, on occasion, the English horn. I also played alto sax in the marching band.

Playing this music, especially the music I played in orchestras, was particularly fulfilling for me. Although never playing at a professional level, my oboe teacher did tell me that I could enter a conservatory. As it turned out, I happily never made such a decision.

In retrospect, my level of hearing must have started to slowly deteriorate during graduate school. I never had a hearing test, so there are no objective measures to support this assumption. But I think I tended to play the radio or records louder than my neighbors expected. That being the case, I don’t recall ever having difficulty hearing or understanding what my friends, colleagues and teachers were saying.

All that was to end just as I was finishing my graduate studies.

A blog about hearing

I don’t pretend having important insights into human hearing. I have certainly not done any scientific or sociological research in the area. I have no more medical knowledge than any alert and inquisitive patient. So, why bother publishing anything about the subject?

I am writing in part for me, in part for others with an interest in hearing. Writing down what I have experienced helps me to formulate and to understand that experience. But that understanding and my memory of my experience will certainly evolve. Thus, I reserve the right to return to these pages and change anything at all.

I do maintain a log of the results of my hearing exercises. This log is of inestimable value in helping me focus on my greatest hearing problems. But such a log does not record my emotional states and my beliefs about myself and my experience.

Furthermore, many people facing hearing issues are faced today with choices that were inimaginable only a few decades ago. Not only are sophisticated external devices available to help hearing and comprehension. Various forms of surgery are able to restore hearing in many people who otherwise would be as deaf as a dollar bill.

I hope to share with these people some personal information that may be of use to them. I hope to return to the community something the community has shared with me and many others with great alacrity.

These pages are not a diary, although there is a chronological sense to the articles. Maybe I am not sufficiently attuned to my inner workings to see enough to recount my hearing on a daily basis. Hearing changes, but tends to change very slowly, except when punctuated by accidents, diseases and other mishaps. Thus, my sense of time is more like the chronology of an 18th century novel.

I owe my decision to write these pages to two other external influences. I have just finished reading Siri Hustvedt’s book Memories of the Future, a sort of epistemology of the self, of memory, of writing and of fiction. And a neighbor of mine, a neurologist having worked with children and adults with hearing issues, asked me if I keep a journal. This site is, in part, an answer to his question.